The Blacks

New Adventure

2012-01-19T05:40:00.001-08:00

So about a week ago Haiden was sitting next to me in sacrament meeting and she said " mom this tooth hurts." Pointing to her front tooth. I wiggled it and sure enough it was a tad bit loose. We got excited. For the past six months she had been asking me when she was going to loose a tooth. After that Sunday we where hanging out one night that week and she told her daddy she felt something weird with her tongue on the bottom of her mouth. He looked and sure enough she had a tooth coming in. So we wiggled and wiggled and wiggled the baby tooth but with no luck. Last Saturday night I told Cameron that it wasn't going to come out any time soon and that we should probably get it pulled. Luckily we have a Dentist in the house. He went to his office grabbed some topical and we turned our kitchen counter into a dental chair. With all the kids watching we successfully pulled Haiden's first tooth and the tooth Fairy arrived later that night to buy the tooth off of her while she slept. So excited for you Haiden.

Taking time to reflect

2012-01-17T13:14:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Haiden didn't have school. I found a picture that she had drawn of outer space the night before. In it was Jesus the earth , stars and some Planet's. Anyway I had a thought to lay some paper down in my entry way and pull out the paint. I put the Little's down for nap and Haiden, Kylie and I went crazy learning, drawing and painting the Solar System. After it was over and everyone was awake, we moved on to play dough and a dance party. It was all cleaned up including the kid's just in time for Daddy to come home and me to head of to school. Even though at the end of the day I was exhausted I love these times with my kids. I have always been amazed at how their little minds work and have always wanted them to have a strong desire to learn. I am thankful that I have the ability to stay home with my kids and spend time with them. I am thankful for the day's when life slows down and I get to have hands on fun with them, with out any mundane interruptions from normal life. More then anything in the world I have always wanted to be a Mom and I have reflected today on how often we get caught up in extra activities, homework, party planning, volunteering and everything extra that really gets in the way of hat I really want to be doing. I am going to strive for more day's like yesterday in hopes that it will find us a happier home. Time to start asking the question of which sacrifices are beneficial to our family and which ones are not.

Talent's

2012-01-15T18:32:00.001-08:00

Old picture of Haiden and Kylie I was Three months pregnant with Laikyn, my how time flies oh, and yes, I miss my hair.

Our Heavenly Father has blessed us with Talent's. We all have our own, special to us. I think about the talent's I have and think a lot about how to improve them. All my life I have enjoyed music. I have sung in Church since I was little. I remember singing with my sisters in the Young Women's Sacrament Meeting programs back when they use to do it. I remember signing for Mothers day, I remember singing in School. I went years without actually learning how to read music but have always enjoyed Music. The past year I have started to learn how to play the piano in hopes that it would improve my ability to sing. I have finally learned how to read music correctly and have noticed a difference in my singing. It is easier to pick up music out of nowhere and learn how to sing it.

Any way to get to my point. The last few times I have sang in church have really been unsuccessful, my nerves get the best of me, my emotions become uncontrolled and I cannot portray the song the way I would like too. I find the older I get the harder it is to share my talent. This week in particular I have struggled with the commandment of sharing our talent's. I was asked to sing in Church today and through the week as Sunday crept up on me and as I practiced numerous times I felt my nerves getting the best of me. I question if this is really a talent I should be sharing. I begged the Lord this week to help me share this talent he has blessed me with in a way for people to hear my testimony. I asked that my nerves would be calm that I could get through the song. I had faith as I walked in the building that all would be well.....

I sang a beautiful version of Where can I Turn For Peace. I have grown to have a personal Testimony of this song. The words are so true. He only One........

I made it all the way till the last verse.. For my Beseeching, Constant he is and kind, Love without end. And could not continue. After frustration and contemplation I have come to the conclusion that sometimes we are not supposed to sing a song perfectly and maybe that isn't my talent. Maybe it is something else I haven't found. As I listen to the compliments payed after the song I realized that my message was relayed and people felt the spirit even though I could not finish the song. I am thankful that Heavenly Father Answered my prayer today and even though I didn't make it through the song, that wasn't what was remembered. This is the second time this has happened to me and I have decided I will be doing more duets instead of solo's. I am however thankful for these opportunities to express my thoughts through song. I Love my Heavenly Father. I am thankful for my testimony. I am thankful that I know of his love and that I know that through the hard times in my life I can turn to him, that he understands....He only one..........

Mr. Jett

2012-01-05T07:52:00.000-08:00

Mr. Jett will be 18 months next Friday. This means a lot for me. My little boy is growing up to fast and I want it to stop. Next Sunday he will enter into the world of Nursery. This will be the first time that we have one entering without a sibling in already. (Laikyn will be in Sunbeams starting on Sunday.) This will also be the first time that Cameron and I wont be having a baby in two or three months after he enters too! I have not decided if I should be happy or sad. It will be nice to be able to sit through class again. It will be nice to maybe have a calling where I am not lugging around a newborn or a screaming one year old. It will be good in a lot of ways.

Jett good luck in Nursery. We are excited for you to start on this path of learning more about your Savior and who you are. Please be nice, share your toy's and do not hit, bit, or scream. Be reverent. Remember we love you, and we will pick you up at the end of church!

Urgent Present

2011-12-20T06:40:00.000-08:00

Dear Black Family,

Thank you for helping me out this year, we hope that your travels where safe in retrieving this gift. Hope that this gift finds you well and able for the task ahead. A few rules before opening this gift.

1.This gift is small Fragile and needs a lot of love.

2. This gift needs to be kept warm in the winter time so always have a blanket near by.

3. This gift will ruin your toy's if left on the floor so make sure you clean up your toy's before playing with this one.

4. Enjoy for years to come

Love,

Santa Clause

Dear Black Family

2011-12-20T06:30:00.001-08:00

Dear Black Family,

I have written you this letter in hopes that you may be able to retrieve a present I regretfully have not yet been able to pick up. I am very busy this time of year and as we get down to the wire of Christmas my elf's have forgotten to schedule this one last pick up for the North Pole. I ask that if it at all possible that you could Help me out by picking up this urgent present on Wed at 8 am at this address 250 North Pole. This will be a long journey so please prepare accordingly, no children will be aloud and please wear warm clothes!

Thank you VERY MERRY MUCH,

Santa Cluase

Stay Tuned to find out what Santa's urgent gift is......

This Is

2011-12-15T15:15:00.000-08:00

This is Kylie. She is almost five years old, she is cute, she is sharp, she is funny, she is fun, she is creative, she is smart, she is caring, she loves animals, she loves her siblings, she is STUBBORN!!!!!! I love this child with all my heart but Cameron and I are at the point where not even the parenting books can help us. No she isn't mean to other kids, no she isn't in to everything, no she doesn't scream and shout and yell, but she does talk back, she doesn't hear when we try to reason with her. She just does her own thing. Everything has to be her idea, everything has to be the way she envisions. She doesn't listen, she is in her own time zone and right now she is making it really hard for me to be a nice sane mother to her. So I have had her in her room since 8 this morning and it is now almost 5. Yes I have fed her and let her use the restroom but other then that to the room it is. Mostly just so that I can think up a new way to raise her. A hole new way completely. I am doing the research and will re attempt in the morning with strategy #2. Wish me luck

Finally

2011-11-10T12:54:00.000-08:00

I have been waiting till it was official but as of Last week Jett has started to walk all on his own. The girls kill me because they scream everytime he does it. I wonder when they will get tired of being so excited. I love it. Along with the walking he has added a few new words to his vocab. He say's All done, and Ta-dah! It is so fun to watch him grow.

Halloween update

2011-11-10T12:45:00.000-08:00

This year for Halloween Cameron had a hunt. He had bought a tag for it on some private Land. He had been gone off and on for the two weeks leading up to Halloween to Scout for deer and then Finally Hunt. On Sunday night when he got home, still with no deer. He asked if I wanted to take the kids hunting for FHe. ( He Forgot that it was Halloween.) So that day I sat the kids down and gave them a choice to either go trick or treating or go hunting with Daddy. I knew that it wouldn't be a hard choice and happily Monday night I fed them mummy pizza packed them in the car, went to Haiden's dance, and picked Cameron up for our Hunting trip. Kids where all dressed in their costumes and we had a lot of fun together. When we arrived home the kids had been visited by the Halloween Monster and had buckets full of Candy. Here is to another year of a Happy Halloween with out the trick or treaters!

Update On My Laikyn

2011-11-01T15:19:00.000-07:00

Laikyn turned Three Sept. 30th. We where awful parent's and went to Disneyland without her. I know I know Horrible, but we did celebrate the weekend before. We love you Laikyn you are our sweet, sensitive, loving, Little miss Mischief. Whom we Love. I know that you are just a genius trapped inside of this little body and one day you will be able to show us all that you weren't trying to get in trouble all the time. You just wanted to learn. Love you Happy Birthday. P.s to make things worse she wanted a Micky Mouse Cake for her birthday.

Beautiful Heart Break

2011-10-29T11:21:00.000-07:00

Love this song from Hillary weeks. The words mean so much. I cant wait for the day when I can feel this way about the trials in life. Love Love Love that I know the purpose for why I am hear and that one day I will look back on my life and be happy for the hard times that made me a better me, and hopefully will end up changing my life for the better. Their is a reason why life get's hard sometimes and we may not see it when we are in the middle of it but through Faith and an understanding when the clouds do clear, we can recover, and see that we had to experience these things in order to grow, learn and become better fit for his kingdom.

It's about Time.

2011-10-29T05:24:00.000-07:00

Update on our fun trip to disneyland. We left the two littles at home with grandma Black and took Haiden And Kylie. Cameron and I agreed that we would not return until Jett was 5 and tall enough to ride all the rides. We still had fun and thanks Amber for coming along for the ride.

Grateful

2011-09-16T13:39:00.000-07:00

Today I am grateful for the simple things, like that today not one of my kids threw up last night, that today I could get out of bed and actually function, that my kids are breathing, playing, fighting, crying, eating, learning, growing. I am thankful for simple things today

Boston Brandon Bradford

2011-09-08T12:20:00.000-07:00

I hope this is ok and maybe it isn't but I cant stop thinking about how amazing my big sister is! I love her, and my relationship grows stronger with her everyday. She has been my rock, and my source of answers throughout my life and now I want to be that for her. This past Tuesday she delivered her little baby boy way to early. Little Guy just came here to gain a body and return home. It makes me question why we have to go through such harsh trials and experience so much pain and longing and desire. And then I remember the savior. He suffered for not only our sin's but for all of our trials, for all of our pain for all of our desires. He and only he knows what we are going through. We chose to come here and to have these experiences I feel that as the older I grow the more reality Set's in to how hard this life really is. Some things we chose, some things we don't, some things happen to us and some things we cause to happen to us. all I know is that I am thankful for what I know, I am thankful for my testimony that allows me to stand tall and to understand why we have to endure the harshness of this evil world. Janelle and Brandon, I love you, I know that you are strong and I know that Boston waits for you to be with him again. focus on the Eternal Family part through this trial and you will be able to continue to be as strong as you are. Here is too you little pea Boston.

Cameron is Away

2011-08-27T19:36:00.000-07:00

I made these little shoe boxes for the kid's I just bought plain baskets and lined them with material and then painted four wooden slates with chalkboard paint and then wrote their names on them. I love them.
I painted the pantry wall a kaki ( which you cant see very well, if you look really close you can see that the kitchen walls are the peachy cream, ugly.) I painted the dinning area a golden brown. I love It too.
My Laundry room was already Orange and I never wanted to paint over it but couldn't figure out what to do with it. When I went to visit my sister in Nephi I found this bench and she thought it would look good in my Laundry room. She was right. I made the pillows to help tie in the colors. Thank Janelle.

I have been wanting to paint my house since we moved in three years ago. We painted the main room that was a mauve color but didn't paint anything else. I just had the play room re-painted due to our water leak, and I can't handle the peachy cream anymore. Cameron hates when I paint. He Say's I am so sloppy. I have to admit, that I am pretty sloppy. So Cameron went out of town, he flew to Washington,DC to be a part of his friends burial service who was killed in Iraq. He was a pretty amazing man and served this country with love and pride. While Cameron is away I had ample time, to take my time, and redecorate so I did Here are some pictures. I am pretty happy with how everything turned out. I feel like my home is clean and new!

It's Catch Up Time

2011-08-27T19:26:00.000-07:00

The end of Summer left us with Haiden's Birthday party, a trip to Utah to visit my sister, and getting Haiden ready for first grade. Here are some pictures.

Gossip

2011-08-15T08:41:00.001-07:00

Gossip, I have had my fair share of gossip, I have learned a lot in the past ten years of marriage that I would rather sit and listen then to partake. I did have my moments not so much anymore. We all would be lying if we said we never partook. I will have to say that I learned my lesson a long time ago that nothing good comes of it, but that some people thrive off of it, I have met some that can fool you real well, and some who care less . I would like to think that I have way to much to do then sit around and talk negative about people especially when I don't even know the story. I would love that if people wanted to gossip about me that they would just gossip about me to me and get their story straight or how about they just mind their own business. That is a novel idea. Do we really even know how much damage we are causing by the gossip and rumours we spread? Their are my two sense on gossip. Her is what the church has to say....

Gossip: How to Stop It

By Casey Null

Thoughtless or unkind words can ruin a reputation, alter a relationship, change the course of a life.

Here’s how to avoid gossip.

When is it gossip, and when is it just conversation? Ask yourself the following questions:

would you feel good repeating it to the person you are talking about?

does it make the person look good or bad?

Is it verifable fact or speculation?
Have you heard different version's of the same story?
what are the motives of the person giving you this information?
Do you feel uplifted?
Gossip can be addicting. Here are some ways to break the habit:

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THINK about how you feel after you’ve passed along a rumor. Do you feel good about yourself? How do you feel when you say something nice about someone?
PRAY AND STUDY THE SCRIPTURES to feel the love of Heavenly Father. We often gossip because we feel inadequate about ourselves.
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SUBSTITUTE another activity. When you are tempted to gossip, do or say something constructive instead.
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LOOK for your motives. Are you talking about others because you care about them, or are you putting them down to make yourself look better?
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REALIZE that you are not perfect either. Think of negative things others could say about you if they wanted to. Wouldn’t you rather leave those things unsaid?

Summer

2011-08-14T15:12:00.000-07:00

Summer is ending and I am sad. Goodbye opportunity to sleep in with the kids all piled in my bed after the gym. Goodbye afternoons of naked children running around the back yard. Goodbye, bedtime being whenever we get them to bed. Goodbye, Haiden I don't look forward to Tuesday I will miss having you home all day and I cant wait for the vacations from school so we can have you back. Goodbye tan, I will miss.

Hello, Fall, Hello, Decorations, Hello, homework, Hello, chaos.

Little miss Smarty pants

2011-07-15T12:28:00.000-07:00

On Tuesday night I got a phone call from a nursery leader in our ward. He told me that he just had to call and tell me a story about Haiden. The story goes as follows...

He said. " On Sunday Haiden came to the nursery to pick up Laiken, when she arrived at the gate she said..."

"Hi I am Haiden and I am here to pick up my sister"

He said " My response to her was, how do we know that you are who you say you are? Do you have proof of identification? Like a drivers license or a social security card?"

She said.

"Well No I don't drive but I take swim lesson's"

He was cracking up and thought it was so funny that she knew exactly what he was trying to get at and that she knew she couldn't drive but she was hoping that swim lessons would be enough to allow her to get her dear sister from the nursery.

Thanks LeGrand for that phone call. I love hearing stories about my kids through the eye's of others.

Birthday Party

2011-07-13T18:25:00.000-07:00

Some fun Pictures of the birthday Cake and the birthday boy!

One year ago Today

2011-07-13T04:45:00.000-07:00

One year Ago today we welcomed our little Boy into the world. Long awaited was this moment and the past year has been filled with many firsts for me as a mother of four. Jett Happy birthday body. You are one today and their has been so much growth in you. You can now say Mommy Daddy you wave good bye, you are verry vocal when it comes to sharing your toy's, you love music, you love to chase your sisters around the house on your hands and knees and you are close to taking your first step. Thank you for joining our family and bringing happiness to my life every day with your little personality. I cant wait to see what is in store for us this year. Love you buddy. More pictures to come

The first Tee

2011-06-30T14:58:00.001-07:00

Haiden has been participating in The First Tee Golfing Class in Kirtland this summer. Her daddy has been taking her golfing since she was 3 and she has really fallen in love with the game of golf. I even caught her watching it the other day. Here is a shot of her shot on the last day of the first session. She is doing awesome.

Inspiration

2011-06-28T14:33:00.000-07:00

Cameron gave, what I thought a pretty awesome lesson on Sunday. He would die if he knew that I posted about this but I felt that he really had some inspiration. He based his lesson around this poem by C.C. Miller. Just a little reminder to us as parent's. What we really should be doing in life right now as we raise our little Lambs.

Twas a sheep not a lamb that strayed away

In the parable Jesus told,

A grown-up sheep that strayed away From the ninety and nine in the fold.

And why for the sheep should we seek And earnestly hope and pray? Because there is danger when sheep go wrong; They lead the lambs astray.

Lambs will follow the sheep, you know, Wherever the sheep may stray. When sheep go wrong, it won’t take long Til the lambs are as wrong as they.

And so with the sheep we earnestly plead For the sake of the lambs today, For when sheep are lost, what a terrible cost The lambs will have to pay!

Funny Quotes From the Peanut Gallery

2011-06-20T20:00:00.000-07:00

Jett: I want to start off by saying the fourth kid has really sent me flying. I have not taken a picture of him since christmas. Pathetic I know. anyway he is close to walking I am giving him a few months and not trying to get excited. My favorite thing he does right now is he loves to be chased by anyone who will chase him.
The kids have been so funny lately. I just had to share a few things.

Laikyn-

The other day at swim lessons Mrs. Erin their teacher told Laikyn "Don't worry I got ya" and

Laikyn said back to her. "Oh no I've got you" So funny I love it!

Laikyn has been sucking her thumb now since Jett has been born. We don't like it and we don't really allow it. The other day I told her to get it out of her mouth and she screamed at the top of her lungs "I WANT TO SUCK MY THUMB MOM LEAVE IT ALONE" She is 2 1/2 by the way.

For fathers day I asked her what she loved about her father and she said" When he tells me to stop sucking my thumb"

I made broccoli soup for dinner tonight and she approached the table plugged her nose and said" Ewe Mommy I don't like it.

Kylie-

She recently got glasses because of a lazy eye. She told Grandpa " Grandpa I had to get glasses because my eye was lazy" Grandpa said "why is your eye lazy" She said " Cause it didn't get enough sleep"

Haiden-

"Mom I love you." "How does that make you feel?"

Me: "Thank you future therapist makes me feel great." "Love you too"

Haiden: " Mommy you are funny" " That is mostly why I love you"

Haiden has been doing an awesome job in her swim lessons this year she can almost make across the pool and when we go swimming she takes off on her own. I never thought that day would come. She is also doing a golf class this summer called the first tee and is loving it. The other day she was hitting in the back yard with her da and she asked him if she could go pro one day.

Ten Years

2011-05-25T12:19:00.000-07:00

Ten things I have learned and gained in the ten years of marriage.

1. What unconditional love really means.

2. How neat it is to have one person in this world that you can tell everything to.

3. Truly having a best friend.

4. Marriage is hard work, but totally worth it.

5. The harder you work at it the more you love.

6. Building something out of two single individuals who where complete strangers.

7. Everyday is an adventure good and bad.

8. Through trials comes a never knowing understanding of ones self and strength.

9. Selflessness

10. I am a better me then I was when it all began.

Thank you Cameron for allowing me to share ten happy, hard, well worth it years with you. I look forward to the days when we can look back and see what we have accomplished together, I look forward to what tomorrow will bring and mostly look forward to loving you even more then I do today.

Kylie's New Adventure

2011-05-21T05:33:00.000-07:00

Earlier this school year I noticed little miss Kylie's Left eye was turning inward. Personally since she was born I always swore she had one eye bigger then the other and when she was tired I noticed it a lot more. I finally took her in to have it checked, and sure enough it is a little Lazy. Their is a term for I just cant remember. Any way here are a few pictures of her with her new little look. I love it! When we went to pick them up I got a babysitter for the other kids so that it could be a special event and we went for ice cream after. She is doing a great job so far of wearing them. I have to however reminder that Laikyn cannot get a hold of them and if they aren't on her face they have to be in her little carrier. She is figuring it out and looks super cute in them!!! Love you Kylie.

2011-05-20T13:19:00.001-07:00

This is Laikyn. Have you met her? I swear the more kids we have, the craizer their personalities become. Yes these are her undies. She insists on getting dressed by herself. On this day she refused to let me help her put her undies where they should be. Needless to say we didn't leave the house that day. She has to be escorted to the bathroom, every time, even though she can do it all by herself. She wants to do everything by herself but at the same time needs my help always. I love this little kiddo.

It's been awhile

2011-05-19T09:27:00.000-07:00

Wow I have now Decided That I Hate May! Between A long two week trip to California and Utah I headed into the Month of May on an emotional roller coaster. Then I had Teacher appricetion week and it went great just full of caos. Did I mention I was training to swim a mile in the Farmington Lake in two weeks. Ahhhhh!. Not to mention my kids are so worn out and getting back to normal has taken a few weeks.

Here is a picture of my beautiful Haiden who Fell asleep doing her homework at the kithen table.

Three down one more to go

2011-03-03T20:47:00.000-08:00

i have been waiting this long to post this because I didn't want to jinx anything. Laikyn is officially potty trained!!!! By far Haiden was the easiest, Kylie was the hardest and Laikyn was a good mix of both. She stayed dry through the night right off the bat and only had a few accedents with that. I cant tell you the last time I went to the store and baught 3 different types of diapers and sizes. It has been lovely. Thank you Laikyn for being so smart. Mommy and daddy are so proud and love you so much.

Something for Me

2011-02-22T13:43:00.001-08:00

So Cameron and I purchased this lovely piano about a month ago. I asked Cameron if it would be OK to maybe take some lessons. I have been thinking about this for some time now. Cameron of course agreed. As I got to thinking about it their was just no way I could find the time to do it. We have a few people who teach around here and the college offers classes in piano but I really didn't want to take the time away from the family. Needless to say I have a wonderful friend who is an awesome piano teacher and I asked her if she would come to me once a week to tech me so that way I could have the kids in their own environment and not have to add one more thing. She agreed and it has been a month now. I am really enjoying this and am happy to not feel so handicap when it comes t music. Now I am just struggling with finding the time to practice everyday but we are working it all out.

Neat experience today

2011-02-04T14:57:00.000-08:00

So When I was about 10-14 years old I loved to babysit. I had a few neighbors who never turned down my request to help fold laundry, play with their kids so they could clean or change poppy diapers. I remember one family where she would always pay me and my sisters in old barbies she had hidden in a closet. I remember one family who I started with when there daughter was three and watched their family grow from 1 to 5. I loved it and it taught me a lot about being a mother and how fun it would be one day. Well today I got a phone call from a family in our ward who said " Janae can my girls come over and watch your girls for you as a service, They are bored and would really love to come and help you." Wow I always have been fortunate since we moved out here to have any baby sitter we want when we want it. I get girls always offering to come over so I can run errands but today for some reason it hit me hard. Here is a family that is really trying to teach service to their kids and the kids actually love it. They want to come and help. They want to play with my kids even though I am just right upstairs taking a shower and bathing the dog. I am so thankful that God answered my prayer today through these two young women. I am thankful that there are still parent's out their that teach their kids that service is overall more important then anything and I am shocked that two girls in this day in age have a day off from school and actually wanted to spend it at my house with my kids. Love it!

Struggles

2011-01-18T20:19:00.000-08:00

Why do we have to have struggles. I am tired, worn out, running faster then I can. These past few weeks have been crazy, so today I took a day off. I skipped out on Kylie's dance, I had someone else take over play group. I stayed home and did what I wanted to do just with me and the kids. I made a wonderful dinner and spent one on one time with the kids. I wasn't yelling, rushing or stressed it felt so great. I remember the day's when I would feed the kids at 4:30 and bathe them at 5:00 and just hang out bored with nothing left to do and lately I feel like I am always rushing to get to the next scheduled event. The worst part of it all is that it's only going to get worse. I just wish I could find some happiness in the now instead of wishing to go back or move forward. I felt like today I was able to reflect on that.

Sisters

2011-01-05T20:46:00.000-08:00

I am thankful for my sisters each one of them influences my life in so many ways I am truly blessed to have them in my life. It wasn't always the case growing up. I think back to it now and I know that it was a just the fact that we where so much a like in so many ways. Thanks Janette for all the deep conversations we have over the phone, they are deeply spiritual sometimes and help me think hard about my life. You are amazing and a great support to your family. Thanks Janelle for always supporting me with my children and always answering my phone calls, thank you for always being so willing to help me at the drop of a hat weather it's advice or physically helping me. You are my Martha Stewart and the Jack of all Trades. I look up to you both and I remember the day's when I used to try on your dresses every Sunday praying that just maybe they would fit that time. I really just wanted to be big like you.

This Christmas break was full of fun, Laughter, and tears with my three girls. It was so nice to have Haiden home again all day but towards the end, poor Laikyn, I think was ready for Haiden to go back to school so she could have some alone time with Kylie. Here are some new pics, taken by Paul Mc Pherson, that pretty much sum up their feelings for each other. When I looked at these pictures I couldn't help but think about my sisters and envisioning us when we where little. Who would have thought then that we would love each other even more now. I hope that no matter what the next 20 years bring in my girls life that they will grow closer together as sisters.

Christmas 2010

2010-12-25T20:00:00.000-08:00

Another year, Another christmas. Jett had his first Christmas this year and started sitting up just in time to play with his toy's. Laikyn is on her way to potty training and is doing well( day 5 now). Kylie has been really into learning and writing not just her name but Haidens, and Laikyn's and Jett's, She is our artist. Haiden is loving having a break from school and has

asked if she could have a nap everyday. Cameron and I are really enjoying where we are at right now in our lives and are happy to have four beautiful healthy happy Children.

Potty Training

2010-12-25T19:47:00.000-08:00

These are my likes and dislikes about potty training. I will start with my dislikes that way we end on a good note.

1. Knowing that the child is ready but not wanting to even begin

2. stopping everything I am doing for a week to get it done.

3. Cleaning up pee off my floors, carpet, couch, counters, (Yes I said it, Counters)

4. Laundry,Loads of Laundry.

5. reading the potty books over and over again.

These are my five Likes about Potty Training

1. The time spent one on one with the child that is always very much needed but not always given.

2. The times when the pee and the pooh make it in the potty and you feel like your child is a genius.

3. Watching your child grow from a baby into a toddler in a matter of day's

4. Learning that they are capable of understanding a lot more then we give them credit for.

5. Being able to see their face when they realize what they can do and watching them be proud of themselves.

As much as I hate potty training their are good things and blessings that come of it. Laikyn and I have had a rough few months but I have to say I have learned a lot about her this week and have really enjoyed giving her so much positive attention and love. It has been good for us to have this time together. Thank you Laikyn for doing so well and going on the potty. Love you!!!

Sad day today

2010-12-02T10:16:00.001-08:00

A year in a half after Cameron and I were married we decided to add to our family. Aspen came into our lives 9 years ago. After months of waiting for her we drove to the Salt Lake airport to pick her up. We where so excited I cried. She was so tiny she fit in the palm of my hand. We took her home and gave her a bath. Cameron's sister and brother-in-law came over with gifts for her. We laughed because she was so tiny and when she got excited she walked side way's.

The next day I took her to the Vet where they did an exam and basically told us to send her back, she was malnourished, and had the mange. She also had an intestinal problem that caused her to have diarrhea. I was so in love I couldn't fathom taking her back.......and so it began.

The vet appointments the medication all the time and effort. After about six months of that we had a clean bill of health only to find out six months later that she had hip problems in both hips. Off to the surgeon for those.

Needless to say after the first two years of her life she had become the best dog ever. She moved from Utah to San Fran with us and lived a time with Grandma and Grandpa Phillips, who fell in love with her and almost didn't give her back, She then made the move with us to Blanding where she lived a time with Grandma and Grandpa Black until we bought our home here in Farmington.

Aspen spread her love to everyone and was very loved in return. She was my first baby, she taught me how to be a Mom and to love and more forgiving.

Today I drove her to the Vet one last time. Yes she had 9 good years and I wanted her to go out without having to suffer any more. Aspen thanks for being a great dog and for being a companion to me for those four years I had to wait to have children and for the love and protection that you afforded to all of our children. You where a member of our family and we will miss you till we see you again.

Haiden's Busy week

2010-11-21T07:31:00.000-08:00

Haiden's week was busy. It started with a fun party at her friend Dana's on Friday and continued with school on Monday and Crazy hair day on Tuesday. She wanted a mow hawk so this is what I came up with. their is also a picture of her face painting. No offense Mom and Dad,but I can remember my parent's not really liking us to do face painting. I don't know if it was because it resembled a ta too or what. I think it might have been the whole, Your body is your temple thing, anyway, any time their is an opportunity to get my girls faces painted I do it out of missed opportunities as a child. Anyway enjoy the pictures.

Mr. Jett

2010-11-09T15:42:00.000-08:00

Mr. Jett will be four months soon. Wow already going to fast. His newest trick is that he is already wanting to sit up. What is that about. My girls had no desire until they where about 6 months. I think the future may not be pretty for me with him already wanting to do these kind of things. Slow down buddy you have plenty of time

Cameron

2010-11-07T18:32:00.000-08:00

Dear Cameron,

We have almost been married for 10 years. The last two years of our marriage since Laikyn was born has been a rough go. Maybe adjusting from school to working full time and being a part of the " Real World" took more from us then we ever thought. Maybe it is finally calming down. Maybe I was super hormonal after we had Laikyn only to dive in head first again with Jett! Whatever it was, it wasn't pretty. I know that we have many more of these moments to come in our Eternal married life. One thing I have taken from these past hard ships is that when you get over the bump together it is good, it is really good, it is better then ever. I love you and I know that you love me. At the end of the day we love each other. In the morning when you Leave for work I long for you to return. I love when you call me to tell me about your hunt or to just share with me something you expirianced for that day. I love that I am your best friend and you, mine. I love to watch you father our children. I love when you try. You have become a far better person then you where, and because of you so have I. I guess all in all I am thankful for hardships, trials and answered prayers. I know it only helps us grow stronger. Here's to the past and the trials that may lie ahead. I hope for now that it stay's nice likes it's been.

Love you for ever,

Your better half

Halloween 2010

2010-11-04T13:32:00.000-07:00

We had a great Halloween season this year filled with fun foods made by Friends and fun preschool parties. Here are my ghosts in their costumes not much to shout about but since it was on Sunday this year I couldn't see spending more then a few bucks on their costumes. This is my 5th year making costumes by the way.

Pumpkin Patch

2010-10-20T05:05:00.000-07:00

Every year I take our Mom and Me preschool group and their Mom's to the pumpkin patch. It was sad this year because Haiden is in school and didn't get to go with us. When she realized this she was sad but she has forgotten about it by now. I really dont know how I would have done it with all of them anyway. Heres to you Haiden love ya for taking it better then I thought.

Mr.Jett

2010-10-20T04:59:00.000-07:00

Jett is now three months old, Wow did time fly. He Laughs and smiles and just a few day's ago started to roll from his tummy to his back, wich I have to add that none of our girls even thought about doing until they where almost 6 months. I love him he is a crazy kid. Sleeps good at night and is pretty easy going even though a lot of people think he cries way to much I think he is pretty easy. Heres to three months and many more my son!!

Laikyn's B-day Celebration

2010-10-17T19:15:00.000-07:00

We went to Blanding to celebrate Laikyn turning two. That way we could be near Family. Here are some pictures of that weekend's events. I try with each kid to have a special treat that I make for each kid on their b-day. Laikyn's is a really fun watermelon ice cream cake here are some pictures. It was easy to make and a huge hit with the kid's including grandpa!!!

Today

2010-10-05T12:04:00.000-07:00

Today was one of those day's. I slept through my alarm and woke up late for the gym.( I still went)I arrived at home in time to quickly shower before all the kids woke up. I fixed three kids breakfast while one was attached to my breast. We all got ready and out the door to school,dance, grocery store, Dr. and playgroup all before 10:30 am. While at the store Kylie cried because she wanted to sit in the front of the cart( which I usually have to put Laikyn in to keep her fasten in and out of trouble) today I let her which left Laikyn running a muck in the back of the cart. By the time we got to check out and after telling her a million times to please sit down she finally fell out of the cart.( don't worry I grabbed her shirt with my fast mom reflex) Her head barley missed the floor. The Dr.'s office was a whole other story. Why didn't I pack snacks, I always pack snacks. Not today of all days, so they cried all through my app., I have no clue what the Dr. even said to me about my Asthma. I do know that if one more person nicely tells me I have my hands full I will kill them. I have lost my keys a million times today which is not good because I have lost my original keys ( Which are somewhere in the black hole that Laikyn has hidden in her pocket) so if I lose these ones I will be stuck at home forever which after today I don't think is such a bad idea. Will someone please point me in the direction of where I lost my mind!!!!

Our Little Mr.

2010-10-04T14:56:00.000-07:00

Cameron looks goofy in this one

My how he has grown this was him the day he was born!

Mr.Jett is so chubby. We Love his chubbs. We are in shock at how much Chubb he actually has. Here he is on his little 2 month b-day with daddy sporting his future college. Yes We have high hopes for our Future Mr. Right.

Laikyn Sage Black

2010-09-30T10:33:00.001-07:00

If it's not poop it's Lipstick !
I cant get a good picture of her ever because she is so goofy
As Much as I am frustrated with her thru the day she is my favorite playmate!

Laikyn was born exactly 2 years and 15 mins to the day. She has filled our lives with joy Laughter but more importantly the life lesson that no matter how hard you try as a parent your kids ultimately have their free agency. Needless to say Laikyn we are thankful for your little spirit that keeps us alert and on our toes. Who would have thought that you could make us Laugh and cry all in a matter of 24 hours every day. We love you and hope that your spunky personality will grow with you too!! Here are some picks of the past year.

My Dad

2010-09-24T20:27:00.000-07:00

Well it's been a while since I have blogged. In fact I think people are giving up on me because no one is making comments anymore. That's OK because this is mostly just a journal for me anyway.

WARNING: THIS WILL BE A LONG POST

Today My Dad called me. For those of you who don't know me very well, this is a rare occasion. He is a busy man and not very social when it comes to the phone. Anyway When the phone rang it said Caldwell Roofing on the caller ID so I figured it was just my Mom calling me on the cell phone, to my surprise it was my Dad. When I heard his voice on the other end I got a little excited and then nervous. Needless to say it was an awesome conversation that has stuck with me throughout the day and I hope it will always stick with me. For those who know me well they know that one tender thing about me is my relationship with my Dad. Growing up I really felt like he didn't know me very well at all. Now that I am older I realize that he was a very hard working man and worked so hard that he was so exhausted when he came home that he really couldn't spend much time figuring us all out.

I learned a lot from our little conversation today. I learned that my Dad has a lot of things that he wishes he could have done differently in his earlier years as a Dad, (Which I already knew), and second that I am a lot like my dad.( I look like my Mom, but I am my Dad through and through.)

I am thankful for the time I got to spend with my Dad this last month when he came out for Jett's blessing. Most of all I am thankful that he recognizes how alike we are and took the time to give me some well needed good advice today.

Dad I just want you to know that I am glad that I am like you, even though you feel like you didn't do all that you could have, you taught me more then you will know ( I just had to grow up a little). I am so glad that you called me today because sometimes I get discouraged and you motivate me to be a better me. I just want you to know how much it means to me to know that you do know me after all, and despite what you think you where and are an awesome Dad. Thanks again for coming all this way to help Cameron bless our son, and for being the Priesthood holder you are. I love you and thanks for the call I hope their will be more on the way ( and don't worry I wont blog about it everyone!) Love you Dad.

My day on Monday

2010-09-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

4:30am- Feed Mr.Jett

5:00am- go to gym

6:30am- arrive back home shower

6:50am-Feed Mr. Jett

7:00am- Wake the girls feed them breakfast

7:15am-get them ready for the day

7:45am-Load all four kids in the car just to drive a few miles away to take Haiden to school

8:00am- arrive at home

8:15- Finish prepping for Kylie's preschool

9:00am-5 little 3 and 4 year old arrive for preschool

9:30am-Feed Mr.Jett

Between 9-11-Teach preschool

12:00- Feed girls and Mr. Jett lunch

1:00- Put kids down for a nap

1:30 Prepare Haiden's dance close for dance

3:00- walk to bus stop to get Haiden

3:15- shove food in Haiden's mouth get her ready for dance

3:45-Haiden has dance

4:45-Pick Haiden up from dance

5:00pm- Bath girls cook dinner

6:00pm Sis. Missionaries come for dinner

7:30 Missionaries leave put kids to bed.

Clean kitchen get ready for the next day

Wow what was your Monday like? Probably just as crazy. I think four kids is enough.

Jett the 2nd Man in my Life

2010-08-26T19:05:00.000-07:00

My very talented sister made these announcements for me(Thank You Janelle). Anyway there is something about this kid that has brought a new found love into our home. Cameron and I where both talking about it the other day. I am much more calm with him as a mother then I was with the other kids. When he cries (which he does a lot). I find my heart aching to help ease his pain. Today I carried him around in the front pack for most of the day just so he wouldn't cry. Anyone who knows me well, knows that I don't do that. Maybe it's because he is my son or maybe I feel like this time with him is going to be short lived or maybe its the reality that I may be done with this part of my life . I don't know but Mr. Jett I love you!!!!

First day of School 2010

2010-08-25T19:36:00.000-07:00

Her First bus Ride.
Haiden and her Buddy Caleb waiting to get on the bus.
So cute
What a big girl walking around like she knows what she is doing

So Yes we have survived the first two weeks of school. Haiden has done wonderful. She loves her teacher and has been so excited to have a new freedom in her life. The first week was full of a trip to the nurse after getting hurt on the playground ( Blood and all). Also a crying episode the next day when she lost her lunch box on the bus. The next day she forgot that I had made her lunch and someone ended up paying for her to have hot lunch. Anyway I think most of our kinks are worked out and she is growing up to fast. I think I cried more then her. Here are some pictures of the first day.

My Little Girl

2010-08-12T19:38:00.000-07:00

So I am talking my self through what is about to happen tomorrow. Haiden's first day of Kindergarten. I knew her whole life this day would come. I have thought about how great it would be when the kids went to school. I have dreamt about all the things I could get done thought the day while they are away and gone. It wasn't until this last year that I have truly thought it is a bad idea all together. Seriously are supposed to be happy about this. I am bummed. I know that it will be great and that she is ready,( Super excited i might add.) But I cant believe that tomorrow I will join the rest of the school Mom's and actually have a child in school. Good luck Haiden. You will be missed at home all day and we will for sure savor the day's that you have off and we can have you all to ourselves again. We love you and I am sure Kylie will ask me where you are all day long.

Go Cameron!

2010-08-09T08:16:00.000-07:00

For those of you who have known us for a long time know that Cameron is not keen on exercise and for the first 7 1/2 years of our marriage I spent a lot of time trying to get him to a gym. Well it took a trip to Hawaii and a High Cholesterol test to finally kick Cameron into gear. He has spent the last year in a half mastering his work outs. He started off every night trying to get out of going to the gym and a few nights of me pushing him. I remember once saying to him " you can be mad at me all you want but you gotta go after 6 weeks you will be addicted just keep going." So with a few words from me and a wonderful group of encouraging supportive work out buddies Cameron is now addicted and ran his first sprint tri-athalon on Sat. He went from almost 200lbs of drowning weight to a whopping 170lbs swimming body building athlete. Way to go Cameron you are awesome. Now if only I can get through the next few weeks so I can catch back up with him in the workout department. P.s. Picture are not so great because I was chasing little kids around. He ran it in 1 hr 32 min.

Crazy Life

2010-07-29T15:42:00.000-07:00

Just some updates since our little arrival. Haiden turned 5 on the 23rd. We now have a 5 year old. How did that happen? I cant beleive it in fact I went school shopping the other night for her supplies and came home bawling, Cameron thought thatI had recked the car or something. I blame hormones.

The girls finished their swim lessons Haiden is doing well Kylie is on the path to being a little swimmer.

Laikyn Finally cut those nasty teeth. Well almost but we have been seeing little glimpses of the child she used to be.

Cameron is now practicing IV sedation and is loving it.

I am survivng being a mother of four under the age of 5. At the end of the day it is all good.

It's taken two Weeks

2010-07-27T17:20:00.000-07:00

It's Taken two weeks for me to find my plug for my camera to download but it has been found. I have yet to receive the pictures of Jett from my Mother-in-Law so I will just use the ones I have.

Jett Calvin Black Came on Tuesday July 13th at 10:30. After being induced and having a super fast and furious labor Jett arrived.

The day started at 6:00 am at the hospital. At 7:00 I had been hooked up to the meds to induce for a half an hour. My doctor came in and wanted to break my water but he had a surgery so we decided to wait until after he got out before we went that rout. At 9:oo he broke my water, Crazy contractions started and the nurse came and turned off the meds because my body was doing it all on it's own. At about 9:45 I was already at an 8 at 100% effaced and feeling a lot of pressure. I then begged for the first time in my birthing years for some pain meds so I wouldn't have to feel the pushing. I received some in my IV. With in three contractions I was ready to push and shortly later he came. Cameron's first words when he came out where "It Is A Boy" almost as if he was nervous it would change into a girl. Yes it is a boy for real and we are happy he is finally here and healthy.

Hospital Pictures are soon to follow.

Yuck

2010-07-07T20:19:00.000-07:00

All I want to know tonight while I am puking my guts out in the toilet, is will someone just put me out of my misery. How much longer must I go on like this. I cant stand it. I am starving for some good food that will stay down. I think the last two weeks of pregnancy are over rated.

16 Days and Counting

2010-07-03T21:46:00.000-07:00

While my sister was here last week she took some baby shots of my expanding growth as Cameron calls it. Thanks Janelle I think they turned out awesome. I am so excited to get the delivery over and finally see this little spirit that we have waited our whole marriage to meet. I have to admit it will be a little bitter sweet.

A few Things

2010-06-13T21:51:00.000-07:00

Cameron Left yesturday to Organ for his CE course. He will be gone for exactly 17 days total we are now down tho fifteen. The gils keep asking me if he will be coming home in the morning or tonight or next sunday. Every time the door beeps open from our alarm system or someone knocks on the door they scream DADDY. Cameron has spent a lot of time with us at home more then usually just to make sure he took it all in befor leaving but I think it just made it worse because the kids need him more these day's. I am not complaining I want them to want him. it just is making it a little bit harder now that he is gone. So tonight befor bed we made a " When will daddy be home Chain to help the girls count down the days and hopefully quit asking me when he will return. Silly! We will see if it works.

Oh and I think the baby has dropped because my heart burn hasn't been to bad in the last couple of days and today I felt mager movement in my Behind LOL. Hang in their buddy only 15 more days and I dont care if you come or not!!!

If You Give a Mouse a Cookie

2010-06-09T14:45:00.000-07:00

This is how I feel about house work. When I am pregnant!

If you give Janae a Load of Laundry then she will have to do it.

After it is done she will need to fold it and put it away.

When she puts it away she will notice that things she washed that need to be ironed so she will ask to iron them.

When she is done she will notice the marks the ironing bored made in the carpet and insist that she vacuums.

After she vacuums she will have to dust because the vacuum will make it dusty.

When she is done dusting she will notice all the dog hair and insist on Bathing the dogs.

After bathing the dogs she will be so tired.

But will have to wash out the bathtub from the dirty dogs so she will ask to clean the whole bathroom. Which means she will clean all the bathrooms while she has all the stuff out.

Cleaning the bathrooms wont be done until she sweeps and mops the bathroom floors so she will beg for the broom and mop.

While she has the broom and Mop out she will have to clean all the hard floors up.

When she is done with that she will see the load of laundry that the cleaning has made.....

And if you give Janae a load of Laundry she will have to do it.

I Just Want to Know " Can I get any Bigger?"

2010-06-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

What is this? A tumor? No it's my son growing. Don't get me wrong I am thankful for him I really am. This is about the point in pregnancy where I cant take it anymore. Can I get any bigger? Will my body really stretch for much more. Will my bladder ever go back to what it was, let alone my body? When can I eat again without throwing up? Am I going to waddle out of habit after he is born? Do I really have to keep answering perfect strangers questions every time I have to go to the grocery store with my children? I told Cameron today that I am ready to go into hiding. Between strange people asking me if this is a girl two and then hugging me when I tell them no it's a boy. The bank teller today said " Well now your husband wont have to find someone else to give him a son, Poor Guy" What was that. Yeah I thought I was going to be patient with this one but I tell you what the minute Cameron gets off the plan from his CE course I am heading straight in to see if I can be induced ASAP. You know me I have no patience.

Prayers

2010-06-01T20:41:00.000-07:00

Kylie's prayer on Friday night in the hotel after traveling for three hours with Grandma and grandpa Black.

" Father in Heaven, Thank thee for this day, thank thee for the fun we have.,Ask thee that we can have more fun. Bless Mommy, daddy, Tacket, Tacket's kennel, Aspen Laikyn, Haiden and me. Thankful for that my grandma and grandpa could have fun with us. Amen." Her prayers are so thoughtful and very appropriate for the events of the day. Cameron and I have really been noticing how she has really learned to ask her father and heaven for things but also to thank him for all she has. I love to hear her little three year old voice praying it is a very good feeling to know that she is are of him in her life. Oh by the way she always prays for the dogs and Tacket's Kennel.

My thoughts on my own prayers lately has been I feel like I am praying the same prayer everyday, even though it is getting answered a part of me feels the need to make sure I continually ask for one very specific thing just to make sure it keeps happening. Does he ever get tired of me asking for it? I don't know all I know is I really am thankful I have help from someone even if it's just the daily tasks of being a Mom. I am thankful he answers my little prayers throughout the day

9 Years ago Today

2010-05-26T21:51:00.000-07:00

It's crazy for me to imagine that 9 years ago today I married this handsome young man. So hard in fact that today as we were going about our usual routine with Cameron's day off, and the children we both completely forgot. Until about 4:30 pm when my phone calender alarm went off to remind me. Sad huh. Actually Cameron was pretty happy because he didn't have to feel bad for the first time in our marriage that he had totally forgot and I didn't. So here is to 9 years married.

All in all when I think back and reflect on the past nine years I have to say that I am so thankful I ever met this man. I dont know if many of you know the story but we met at my sister and his cousin's wedding. It was one of those short experiances in life that could either change it forever or just fade into a memory. I am thankful that this changed my life forever. Most of you know that I am very verbal with my frustrations with Cameron and even though I get very frustrated with him, I am so greatful that he keeps me on my toes. He has taught me a lot about life he has finished raising me, he is my true and only best friend. I can tell him anything and be completely myself with him. I look at other marriages sometimes and am so thankful that we have the friendship and companionship that we have. When I really think about it I really realize how lucky I am to have met a person who is so much like me in so many ways but at the same time has so much to offer me and truly completes me as a person.

I love my life with you Cameron and I am thankful for all the sacrifices we have made to be where we are today. Thank you for my Three beautiful girls and our son who is making his way to our family. I know we have had our struggles and happy times all mixed into one but I am thankful for our Temple marriage and the foundation that we have built upon and continue to build. Life is good and it's only going to get better. Love you for Eternity!!

Dog info

2010-05-23T00:39:00.000-07:00

Name: Tacket

Sex: M

Size:23 lbs

Type: French Bull dog

How much: $500.00 (or O.B.O)

Dog for sell

2010-05-19T21:42:00.000-07:00

I know what you are all thinking but this is not a joke. I give up I cant do it all I am not wonder woman and this dog is taking it all out of me. I need to find him a home where he can get more attention love and training devotion. 7 months pregnant and three other children under the ages of four. I cant do it anymore and since I cant sell the children he has to go. (P.S. I would never sell the children). If you know of anyone who is looking for a family dog or even just looking for an anything dog, please send them my way.

Easter 2010

2010-05-19T21:36:00.000-07:00

We are at easter now with the girls and their daddy. Love it!!!

Excuse me while I update my blog

2010-05-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

Halloween 2009

I just unloaded my camera and found all these pics of the kids since my computer was broken for 6 months here is a quick update from Oct of 2009. Flash Backs. I made these flower costumes for the girls for Halloween loved them they turned out so cute.

and here is Christmas morning 2009 we spent it all alone and had a very traditional relaxing day. The girls loved it.

E-mails. Love this One

2010-05-18T19:19:00.000-07:00

Montana Bear Tragedy

This is a very sad story about a bear. Everybody should heed the warning to not feed wildlife because they become dependent and cannot forage for themselves anymore.
This is such a tragedy to see what they have done to our country's wildlife!
The photo below captures a disturbing trend that is beginning to affect US wildlife . . . .

Animals that were formerly self-sufficient are now showing signs of belonging to the Democrat Party..... as they have apparently learned to just sit on their butts and wait for the government to step in and provide for their care and sustenance.
This photo is of a Democrat black bear in Montana nicknamed…:

Bearack Obearma.

Baby Shower

2010-05-10T21:29:00.000-07:00

This was the yummiest cakes. I had it at a wedding before I was even prego and I told Cameron I needed an excuse to get it again. He told me I could for the shower. Maple nut and raspberry ganache yummy!

Thank you Mel and Laura for throwing us a shower. I am pregnant with two good friends and two other good friends threw us a shower. Here are some pics. of us moms to be. So Fun

Mothers day

2010-05-10T21:25:00.000-07:00

So for mothers day my mother in law bought this church movie about Emma Smith. Wow what an amazing woman. Anyway just a quick comment it is a great movie that shows all of the trials she faced and how much faith she had. It also shows such trailing times when she questioned her choices and the church. In the end I think she is an amazing women and another roll model for me to look up to

Mom and Me Preschool

2010-04-22T13:15:00.000-07:00

Cameron did a great job at our Dental Field trip the other day. The kids had a blast and They where able to get a little feel for what to expect at their first visit. I have to laugh at the last picture of us Mom's with the Kid's. It looks like pregnancy has become an epidemic in this picture. Look out don't drink the water her in Farmington.

Few Thoughts

2010-04-14T19:58:00.001-07:00

I am feeling very blessed today and just want to express it. First of all I just want to brag a little about what wonderful friends I have and how willing and aware they are of me. I love all of their children and it is a blessing to be surrounded by all these wonderful women their isn't a day that goes by where I don't have the opportunity to serve at least one of them. Their isn't a day that goes by where they aren't willing to serve me. I never have to ask it is always offered. I am thankful. You know who you are. Thank you.

Just a side note Kylie has stayed dry 2 day's in a row and tonight we are tempting to go without a pull up pray for us.

Funny Girls

2010-04-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

Kylie has been full of funny things lately. The other day I had a Dr's apt. only to show up and find out that I was late so they rescheduled me for the next day. As I was gathering up the girls to leave Kylie said

" But we didn't stay long enough to get the baby brother out."

Then today I had to go back to the office to pick up a form that I needed and on the way she said to Haiden

" we are going to Dr. Chang's office to get the baby out."

Haiden then said" No Kylie the baby isn't done baking yet mommy will let us know when it is time."

Haiden also said the other day "Mommy you are going to push three times and he will come out right?"

What do you say to that. They are so funny right now and I love listening to their little conversations.

Oh Laikyn putts in her two scenes all the time. "No No No"

This last weekend

2010-03-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

So after a few bad blogging post and maybe a miner melt down at the gym. My friend Melody called Cameron, unannounced to me, and basically told him he was to stay home with the kids this weekend because she was going to take me to Alb. To my surprise he said sure no problem I will do it you go and have fun! So we escaped Friday night and spent Sat. at the temple,the mall, and a spa. It was so lovely. Thank you to good friends who get it and are not afraid of speaking my mind.

The best thing about the weekend was the girls really had a fun time with daddy. On the way home Cameron text me with. "Let's just say I wont be doing this for awhile I have a whole new appreciation for what you do." When I got home Cameron looked completely defeated lying on the couch. I then began to notice the pink in the carpet as he proceeded to tell me that right before bed the kids where watching a movie and he went upstairs to go to the bathroom. Thirty minutes later as he came back down he noticed Laikyn had gotten into my makeup that was hidden under the bathroom sink. Lets just say pink lipstick was everywhere. His exact words where. "It was the end of the day, I was tired and at the end of my rope. ( how many times as a mom do we fell that way) I had to go to the bathroom just for a few minutes and this is what I get." He said he totally flipped out at all three of the girls because I guess they helped her to get the lipstick out. He was so sad that they had had a good day and he ended it that way. All I could do was laugh, then I cried at the look of my house. The next day at church I was determined that we are just the type of family where Mom just cant leave because the stress it puts on everyone is just not worth it. At the end of the day though Cameron and I both agreed that he needed to spend more time off with us as a family and that if we work together as a team it is a lot easier on us all the way around. Thank you Cameron for this weekend. I love you and you are a great Dad.

New Names

2010-03-29T13:52:00.000-07:00

ok I promise this will be over soon.

What about.

Rowen Glenn Black

Jens Calvin Black

Ian Glenn Black

opps

2010-03-25T15:49:00.001-07:00

As much as I love Cullen to many people brought it too my attention that it sounds like you are saying colin like butt colin so that maybe out. We are back to thinking Axel for sure or Jettson and nicknaming him Jett. What do you think

Naming pole

2010-03-24T21:36:00.000-07:00

so I finally got Cameron to agree on a few names. What do you think.

Cameron is still stuck on...

Axel Glenn Black

My picks are..

Cullen or Kullen Glenn Black

Grahm Glenn Black or Grahm Calvin Black.

Cameron agreed that Kullen was a pretty cool name he just cant get over the fact that it is a twilight name. He also thinks that people will think it is Collin instead and we both do not like that name.

What do you think?

Crying

2010-03-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

Today was a great day. The kids have been on this good streak the last week. For the most part they are listening and helping and sleeping through the night. Today we ventured out and went to big bounce. They didn't throw a fit when it was time to leave. They took great naps. I have a lot to be grateful for.

Cameron has been out of town a lot lately. Personally I have a few thoughts about it. #1 I love him and want him to be content with his life and happy. Thus I allow him to go on hunting trips, fun trips, nights out with the boy's etc. #2 I know that he comes home happy and willing to help. #3 I see it benefit our relationship in a lot of way's when he is gone because he misses me and cant wait to be home. #4 It is a stress relief for him and helps him focus and re-priorities. All in all I am glad that he has opportunities to go.

However tonight I am feeling a little different. This is going to sound supper bad but I am going to let it out anyway. I think Cameron has been doing a little to much for himself lately and I need to get the heck out of dodge. It occurred to me tonight as I was fishing my Phone out of the toilet. (thank you Laikyn) That I need a break. I cant even pee for two minutes in the privacy of my own bathroom without the phone ringing, Someone screaming Mommy, or little miss Laikyn getting into something. I know I am not the only mother out their who feels this way....

I want to go to Vegas without my husband and three children tagging along and remember who I used to be. (oh wait a minute I cant do that entirely because I have a basketball attached to me) I want to wake up in the early morning and go to work all day and come home just in time to put the kids to bed and then go work out for 2 hours at the gym with no one to answer to. I know what everyone is thinking right now. Wow Janae really is going loopy, or Cameron is a Jerk. The truth is that if I told him no, that I didn't want him to go or if I needed a break he would gladly give it to me. There is just something about admitting defeat that I just cant do. so until that day comes I will just sit here in my bed at 11:00 at night and wine to my computer about poor me, and in the morning I will put on my lipstick and tie on my apron and live through another day. Really my life isn't all that bad I just desperately need to have a break or have a good hard core workout. All in all Today was a good day but my mind just wants to focus on the negative.

For some reason tonight I cant stop crying. I feel trapped. ( and no Mom I cant hop on a plane either Dr. Chang said no)

I am so happy

2010-03-17T19:49:00.000-07:00

Everyone knows that my children take their time when it comes to being mobile. With each baby I get my hopes up that they will walk quicker then the last but in fact they always walk later. I am happy to say that after a month in a half of off and on walking Laikyn is finally favoring walking over crawling. Hopefully she will get it down real well before the baby boy comes. Oh yeah we have decided that since we cant think of a name. Or agree on one. We will just call him "Boy". Anyway yeah Laikyn a great week of milestones for you!

Random Thoughts

2010-03-17T19:40:00.000-07:00

I am emotional, I am tired, I am happy I am sad,I am sick of laundry, I need a break, I want to play with my kids, I want to disappear, I want to be alone, I feel alone. Needless to say I don't know what I want today. Cameron left to go on his trip and a part of me is jealous. Not necessarily to be alone but to go on a trip with my family. I just want to pack up and go somewhere other then Blanding. I feel the need to get away for fun not because i have to go somewhere. Crazy thoughts.

Kylie at three Years old

2010-03-12T14:52:00.000-08:00

My Middle Child

2010-03-10T20:26:00.000-08:00

So it has almost been a month and pictures will follow but Kylie turned three last month. Wow time fly's with her. She is so sweet and yet can be so evil in the same minute. Things I notice about her personality so far are.....

1. She does things in her time frame no one else's

2. She is very Motherly to everything to everyone. Lately she has to help me tuck in Laikyn and give her a kiss. She has mastered changing diapers thanks to her baby doll she got for Christmas.

3. She loves to learn with her hands.

4. She loves animals of every kind ( if she could sleep with the dogs she would)

5. She loves to dress up and dance her favorite song right now is According to you where she constantly reminds me that Stupid is a bad word and we don't say it.

6. She is sensitive but at the same time doesn't put up with crap

We love you Kylie and are so grateful you are a part of our family. Here is to another year of laughing and growing with you I love being your mother.

I Gave God an Ultamatum

2010-02-27T08:34:00.000-08:00

When we found out we where having this baby I gave God an ultimatum. I don't think this is really how life should work but I didn't care. I remember saying to him. If this is a girl, there will be no more children in this home. (Unless of course he made it happen with out my knowing.) I said if you want more spirits to come to this home this one better be a boy or it ain't happening.

A lot have people have asked if I am scared, a lot of people have asked if I am ready for this change after three girls, a lot of people have asked what am I going to do.

My thoughts are......

Of course I am a little scared. (What do you Do with a boy?) I do however remember a few things from my baby sitting years and yes it has been a while since I have changed a boy diaper and I am sure I will get peed on but I think for the most part I will make it. Yes I am ready for this change. It's a nice one, I am so glad that it is happening now I feel like we are in a better situation for it. I have already gone through all my girl clothes and am ready to give them away to the next available person. all in all It is a very exciting welcomed change in my live and I may not be prepared for a wild crazy boy after all these girls but I am going to welcome it with open arms. I am over all just grateful that Heavenly Father answered this prayer finally after so many years. Yes I have been praying for it for a long time. Yes I know it isn't good to bargain with God but I am happy he gave in to my wants and not my needs. This is a blessing!!!

Can you see

2010-02-25T06:17:00.000-08:00

So this is not an actual picture of mine. (Cameron has the camera with him hunting.) This is what I saw on the screen at my ultrasound. Yes folks it's true Cameron and I can officially make a Boy. Now if only we can figure out what to name him.

The story behind the day! Tuesday Feb. 23 was my Ultrasound. Only my side of the family new and some friends. I didn't tell Cameron because If it was a girl I wasn't planning on telling anyone until the birth. So I went by myself. It's funny because the Ultrasound tech asked me why I was all by myself and had no spec taters. I said "Well It's going to be our fourth girl so no need for them to come." She laughed and took me back. I laid on the table and she started checking measurements and then she said OK while I am down here I will take a look and see. At this point I wasn't even looking at the screen because I knew what she was going to say. I said to her" and..... It's a girl" She said "wait a minute, this is a boy honey" I immediately said what and turned toward the screen again to see(picture above)a Little weenie. I then started crying hysterically. We are overjoyed and Cameron is still in shock. He told his Mom on the phone that he is just really worried about the baby actually making it here safe. Funny that after three pregnancies now he is worried. He kills me. All I have to say is I guess the Shelts method does work.

Most of you know

2010-02-24T03:46:00.000-08:00

So Pictures will follow but I found out yesterday what I am having. I just thought it would be fun to see what those of you who don't already know thought i was having before I tell.

Have you ever

2010-02-24T03:40:00.000-08:00

A few weeks back the girls and I went to the library and checked out some books. We do this about every Monday or Friday. On this occasion everything went as planned we where headed home and the girls where excited to take the books home and read them for nap. Little did I know what would happen. I had a learning experience. Apparently Kylie doesn't like to just look at the books while she tried to fall asleep. Upon waking her up from her nap that day I found all three books completely shredded to the point of no return. So needless to say $50 later Kylie has learned her lesson and is restricted from the library until she can learn how to treat books. "We read books not rip books."

Finally

2010-02-24T03:38:00.000-08:00

I am proud to announce that I have officially gotten a new computer and am back in business. I have to admit that it was hard being out of touch these last few months. At the same time I felt less pressure to keep updating and checking e-mails. Needless to say I am happy to be back

Updates on the kiddo's

2010-01-10T07:39:00.000-08:00

Laikyn- 15 months
Still not walking although she may only be a little bit away from it.
Vocab-Mom, Da da, Ky Ky, Dog, no, Go, Ow, all done, nigh night.
She loves to dance( she will stand up for ever just to dance but will not take a step)
Her and kylie already fight over toy's she is a happy Little girl always cuddling laughing or smiling.

Kylie- almost three
Loves going to Tap and ballet.
Loves pretending to be the Mom( to Everybody)
She is the Mediator
She loves playing with her dolls
She knows all the detailed words to most songs on the top 20 list.
I thought Haiden liked to sing but she is something else.

Haiden-4 1/2 years
Can recognize most sight words
Can read small books that I have read to her since she was little.
Loves to perform( she sang a duet with me last mothers day and sang in the Christmas program by herself this year)
Very self efficiant.
Total growth spert.
Keeps putting things in her shirt and saying. "Momy is my tummy as big as yours yet"

Christmas Was.....

2009-12-26T16:02:00.000-08:00

Full of Joy
Full of Happiness
Fun Watching our Children
Full of Memories
Lonely
Having New Appreciation for Family
Realizing that it truly is more fun to watch everyone open their presents.
Disappointing when no restaurants where open except a Chinese place in Aztec.
Hope every ones was this great!!!!

Called to Serve

2009-12-23T12:19:00.001-08:00

So I have been in Young women's for about Six years. I have learned a lot and have really enjoyed being a part of these kids lives during a really hard period. I have watched as many struggle with poor choices and struggle with testimonies and have seen the transformation as they build their testimonies and truly begin to understand the gospel. It has been an amazing experience that I hope someday I will be able to partake of again.

Cameron and I went to tithing settlement only to get extended a new calling. I have been called to be the First Counselor in Our Primary Program. I am delighted, scared, in transition but mostly humble to think that someone thought of me and was inspired to even think I am capable. Needless to say I am feeling a little inadequate but I know that this will be a great experience for me as well. I love being a member of a church that allows us to serve in so many way's.

The Shelts Method

2009-11-28T07:53:00.000-08:00

So We have been out of a computer for a month now and i am dying sad huh. Any way i have a little story for those who read........

After giving birth to Laikyn I did some baby making research on how to conceive a boy. Not that I don't love my girls but I think about the future and I get freaked out. All the hormones and the fighting over clothes and boy's, the competition against each other. I hope I make it through. I had a lot of friends ( and a Mother-in-law) request this book called "How to choose the Sex of Your Baby" Or "The Shelts Method" as it is well known. Anyway we purchased the book and when Laikyn was 7 months old we started the method of charting my cycle every month for about six months. Well We are now expecting and I am excited to see if all that hard work has paid off. I will find out at the end of Jan. beginning of Feb. What we are having. Start the guessing and we will see if the book worked or if Cameron and I are just supposed to bring girls to this world.

I truley hope that we have a little boy up their that is willing to come down and join all these girls. P.S. When we told the girls Kylie said." It better be a boy"

This just Describes our Crazy Dog

2009-10-30T09:33:00.001-07:00

So Tacket is just a crazy little puppy and he drives me to my breaking point everyday. He is always getting in to everything today he somehow found all of Cameron's head phones and chewed them all up in a matter of seconds. So here is what happend the other day. Haiden had this bucket filled with toy's and he had to try to chew it up. Enjoy

Marking my territory

2009-10-29T09:34:00.000-07:00

I was painting on the floor with the girls the other day and I decided to mark my territory on them. They thought it was funny and cried when it came off in the bath

Snow

2009-10-29T09:14:00.001-07:00

No pictures yet but Halloween hasn't even come and it has already snowed. Love it!!

Another Day

2009-10-22T07:59:00.001-07:00

So I have had a lot of thoughts lately and need to get them out of my head. This post will not make since it's more for my records and not for you to understand. Here goes. I cant wake up in the mornings for the past two weeks. I get up go to the gym come home get back in bed.. I don't know if it is the weather or what. I never really liked the fall. Everyone talks about how beautiful it is, when truly I hate it. It only means we are getting closer to the holidays whitch are a great time of the year to be with family but really all I can think about are all the things on my to do list that I would rather not have to do. Like try to figure out what to get everyone for Christmas, that they will actually like.( I would rather we just bag it all together and just watch the kids open presents) I keep thinking about all the goodies I have to make and send around hoping that I don't forget anyone. Really I just want to know why do we do this to ourselves why do we set our selves up to fail and feel bad about our capabilities. Why cant we just know that we aren't perfect instead of always trying to prove that we are Miss Homemaker. Those are my thoughts today I guess I will get the kids packed up and out of the house today. I know what you are all thinking. Janae has seriously cracked or maybe deep down inside you all agree with me. What would happen if we went on strike. The world may just stop running. I think one day every house wife should serously go on strike and see what happens.

Hide and Seek

2009-10-12T16:48:00.000-07:00

This is our favorite song right now. I love the creativity of her words Cameron and i think it is an interesting way to portray this epic story of a loved lost. YOU MIGHT HAVE TO GO AND MUTE THE SONG ON LAIKYNS PICTURES BEFORE YOU PRESS PLAY.

Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek (Official Music Video) - More bloopers are a click away

Laikyns First Year

2009-10-09T14:27:00.000-07:00

Hawaii in Three Days

2009-10-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

Day #1Friday-After Cameron gets off work, Drive to Blanding drop off kids, Spend the night.

Day #2 Saturday Wake up at 5:00am Drive 5 hours to Alb. Get on first of three Flights to get to Hawaii. Arrive in Hawaii at 8:00.

Day #3 Sunday Wake up 4:30 in the morning to a picture text from my Mother in Law of the girls in dress up clothes. Cute, but I couldn't go back to sleep, Watched the sun rise, went to the Temple and Turtle bay snorkeled, saw a sea turtle, and watched the surfers surf, went to Sunset beach. soaked up some sun and had a great time.

Day #4 Mon.- Woke up to the phone ringing at 6:00Am, It was Dad calling. Grandma passed away. Try for 3 hours to change flights, get someone to help with the kids( thanks Chanelle) and then Realized we don't have much time. PPC here we come. It was awesome but we where their all day.

Day #5 Tues. -Wake up early for Pearl Harbor. I managed to convince Cam to let me get a message and soak in the sun for a little bit ( the last time.)

Day #6 Wed.- Wake up at 5 am to catch 2 plains get to Alb at 7:30pm arrive in Farmington 10 :30pm

Day #7 Thursday Morning- drive two hours in the morning, Reunight with my children who are happy to see me but inform me that it hasn't been Ten Day's yet.

Day #8 Friday- Help with anything Cam's Mom needs to get things ready for funeral and family.Pack the Kids up and go home.

Day #9 Saturday- Wake up at 4:30 am to Laikyn who is teething and lost her binki in her sleep. Great way to start the day. Cameron is still in Hawaii. Decorate for Halloween. Mowed the Lawn. Take the girls to our favorite restaurant for lunch ( Subway)

Day #10 Sunday-Spend two hours trying to find a way to get conference because Cameron has the computer and we don't get it through our Cable Company. Gave up Watched church movies and made Cinnamon rolls. Drive back to Alb. At 8:00 pm to get Cameron from the airport at 11:00pm. They lost our Luggage, we where there till 12:00am and then drove back to Farmington praying the whole way that we could stay awake.

Funeral was on Tuesday and now we are back.. Love you Grandma, It truly was a beautiful funeral for you. That sums it up so don't ask me how my Vacation was, because it simply wasn't, at least wasn't what I had hoped for in every direction. Apparently it is to much to ask to lay on the beach, sleep in, or have my husband all to myself for ten day's. I am just glad I got to see the Island and yes it does exist. I am however sad that I wasn't just a car ride away to help in such a time of need. I think Grandma might have been telling me something, Like "You dont need to have a break Buck up and deal with life."

Got this e-mail from my mother -in law today.

2009-09-18T12:31:00.000-07:00

TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED THE

1930's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!!

First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank

while they were pregnant.

They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can and didn't get tested for diabetes.

Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered

with bright colored lead-base paints.

We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, locks on doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had baseball caps not helmets on our heads.

As infants & children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, no booster seats, no seat belts, no air bags, bald tires and sometimes no brakes.

Riding in the back of a pick- up truck on a warm day was always a special treat.

We drank water from the garden hose and not from a bottle.

We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and no one actually died from this.

We ate cupcakes, white bread, real butter and bacon. We drank Kool-Aid made with real white sugar. And, we weren't overweight. WHY?

Because we were always outside playing...that's why!

We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on..

No one was able to reach us all day. And, we were OKAY.

We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps

and then ride them down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes.

After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem

We did not have Play stations, Nintendo's and X-boxes. There were no video games, no 150 channels on cable, no video movies or DVD's,

no surround-sound or CD's, no cell phones,no personal computers,

no Internet and no chat rooms.

WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents.

We would get spankings with wooden spoons, switches, ping pong paddles, or just a bare hand and no one would call child services to report abuse.

We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live in us forever.

We were given BB guns for our 10th birthdays, made up games with sticks and tennis balls and, although we were told it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes.

We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just walked in and talked to them.

Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team.

Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment.

Imagine that!!

The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. They actually sided with the law!

These generations have produced some of the best

risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever.

The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.

We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned how to deal with it all.

If YOU are one of them, CONGRATULATIONS!

You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated so much of our lives for our own good.

While you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how brave and lucky their parents were.

Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn't it ?

The quote of the month is by ,Jay Leno:

'With hurricanes, tornados, fires out of control, mud slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up the country from one end to another, and with the threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, are we sure this is a good time to take God out of the Pledge of Allegiance?'

I wish that i could raise my children this way. In fact I find a lot of my friends reverting back to these methods. To bad the world is full of people who take and harm children to the point that you cant trust anyone.

For those that prefer to think that God is not watching over us....go ahead and delete this.

For the rest of us...pass this on.

We have a sleep talker on our Hands

2009-09-14T05:49:00.000-07:00

At 2:00 this morning I hear Gibber jabber and some whimpering coming from the girls room so I went to asses the situation. When I entered the room Little miss Laikyn was sitting up in her crib saying"MaaaaaMaaa Daaaaadaaaa Blah blah blah." I went to Haidens bed to try and calm her down . She said "It's spooky Mommy" After calming her down I went to lay Laikyn back down and noticed her eyes where closed. Yup she was totally asleep sitting up and Jabbering about Me and her dad. No wonder Haiden was spooked I was kinda freaked out myself.

Kinda crazy thoughts.

2009-09-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

Last night I was driving to run a few errands and get a movie for Cameron and I to watch. On my way I got this profound thought. What do people think about before they die? Do they know at that moment that it's going to happen? Does it hurt? Or does Heavenly Father comfort them. I know Crazy and totally random. Well not really. You see Cameron and I are going to Hawaii in a few weeks and it will be the first time that I will be leaving the girls for this amount of time. So lets just say this particular matter has been on my mind a lot lately. Things like if I were to die where would my kids go? Would they know I loved them? Would they remember me? Would they forgive me for going? I truly don't understand why Our heavenly Father would take parents from their families so young. I guess what I am saying is I just cant die yet. I know way dramatic right. Well last night I decided to blog a few things that I want to make sure my family knows before I do die, ya know just in case. Morbid right I know.

Here goes......

Haiden, I love you so much. You where the first born and you made all my dreams come true when we found out we where pregnant with you till now. You where the one to first call me Mom and give me this amazing tittle that I waited so long to have. You are talented and I am so thankful for how obedient you are and I hope that you always stay that way. Continue making good choices and also continue being a great example to your sisters no matter what may come your way. Always turn to prayer for help and know that you are not alone Heavenly Father knows all your pain, struggles and joy. You are so loved by your Father and I and we want you to find happiness and joy in your life.

Kylie, what can I say at 13 weeks pregnant with you you gave us a scare. You fought then and every day since for your way. I love how determined you are in everything you do. I knew then that you will always fight for what you want and need. I love you and all that came with you. You are brilliant and your Heavenly Father gave you a very Motherly personality. You remind me a lot of myself. Your Father and I love you very much and want you to always know of your importance here.

Laikyn, wow how much I love you. I lay you in bed at night and I cant wait until I can push your face up to mine again the next day. I love the slobbery kisses you give me and I love giving them back in return. You truly make me feel like what I do everyday doesn't go unnoticed. Thank you for your ability to go with the flow of things and to show your love to us as your family. Daddy and I are so glad you came to our family and love you so much. Be good and grow into a wonderful happy person.

Cameron, Little do you know that as much as you may think you drive me crazy it is really Crazy how much I love you. You are my soul mate and I knew it the day you first walked into my house that I would love you forever. You know me like no one else and I love our honesty with one another. Thank you for guiding our family and giving me everything I want and need. Thank you for our beautiful children sorry I have yet to give you a son but all in all I think you cannot deny how grateful you are that you have these little women in your life. Please stay good to you and true to your eternal potential. I have so much to say to you that their isn't enough room. I think you know how I feel. Love you for eternity.

I know crazy but this is the only journal I keep so sorry you had to endulge me today. thats it hopefully next post will be more uplifting.

Actual Shot

2009-09-08T13:53:00.000-07:00

This is an actual shot that my friend took at the park